kiki @kiki@godforsaken.website

since the turn of the year i was getting progressively turned off by the fediverse

this was in part due to my own worsening mh but also after seeing the same cycles repeated over and over

so many times PV called out bad actors and got slammed, or worse, got dragged into conversations they weren’t even a part of just to get slammed for calling people out

i didn’t know what to do, so i did nothing

and i knew that made me part of the problem, so i slipped into solipsism

hello! i'm Ciarán/kiki, nonbinary boy living in the northwest of ireland with my wife Mairéad

i've been floating around the fediverse since august 2018, trying to unlearn all my decades of white-cishet-man training

i love music, film, photography - i also love talking about philosophy/social theory but it's a while since i've been deep into reading it

happy to chat and make friends with folk on their own journey to understanding

looking forward to a godforsaken life

will block for racist, anti-black, colorist, ableist, transmisic, homomisic, or any prejudiced talk – zero tolerance if you’re called out and refuse to acknowledge/change

i’m an anxious person so unless we interact regularly i’ve probably reworded any message/reply to you at least 5 times

i am not flirty/forward, so if any response potentially reads that way, you can assume it’s not intended that way – also i get really uncomfortable if i feel i’m being flirted with

i make music under the name drembot: https://drembot.bandcamp.com/

new album is €5 but hmu for a free download code as i still have loads, other bits are free/pay what you like

also on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/5PjdfdGAzsxgAX3GFuMWR4

i sometimes do music/sound design for my friend John's story podcast: https://www.yarnpodcast.com/

i also work on my wife's wedding photo/video business - love to celebrate the love so get in touch if you're getting married: https://www.remaininlightphotography.com/

so you wanna know me now
how i've been
you can't help someone recover
after all you did
so tell me: am i looking better?
have you forgot
whatever it was
that you couldn't stand
about me about me about me
BEEEE-FORE!

YES I DO FEEL BETTER
YES I DO
I FEEL ALRIGHT
I FEEL WELL ENOUGH
TO TELL YOU WHAT
YOU CAN DO
WITH WHAT
YOU'VE GOT TO OFFER

file under "songs that make me feel better"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=POIIGYt5RlE

to me this is just smart vertical integration, surely the irish government would applaud such opportunism

cw food, cannabis

full story, along with the text of the statement below available here - https://www.buzz.ie/news/keoghs-crisps-issue-statement-after-family-member-charged-over-e19k-cannabis-seizure-378124

met some funky looking little caterpillar buddies hanging out in the nettles the other day, never seen these before